Guess the world had stopped and events have been unimaginably scary for some time. The Covid 19 halt had changed lives, rules and presumably – all things. Our experiences through it are different yet we have the same ways to ease in these road blocks. I am pretty lucky to adapt to the changes and still alive and generally okay to this time.
I was moderately cautious with the health protocols. Meaning, I don’t go to the malls or any places that are not very essential. Vitamins, I would normally take them when I remind myself. I take “enough” rest from work, travel to the province to take a little breather (and meet the rest of the family which I can say is travelling in a private car — so not much to worry) and minimal food deliveries. On the side, I am also a student; zoom classes is a new platform. Its pretty wierd but it grew on me hence, was able to get the hang of it. Another healthy distraction I got myself into is the indoor gardening and a little window for painting (but I realised I was terrible with paint brush and paints). Of course, I have tried cooking experimental menus and even tried to prepare “salads” for the family.
Stress that comes with these fiasco is overwhelming and not to mentioned the “work transition” is utterly frustrating and sorry for the lack of word, but it’s senseless. Yes, we joined a new team but we have so much differences that you want to shut them to oblivion. The imbalance or should I say transfer of power, the struggle for dominance, etc does not connect in our multiple meetings. Meetings that take so much time to do your core function but for the new group, meetings are valuable engagements even if you can’t deliver the tasks momentarily.
I have build up so much confidence in myself (I think) that I’m aggressive whenever there is a conversation of whatever topic with this new group. My other peers have if not equally disgust or more to these people. I would describe the transition as pretty rough and so much hand-holding to each and everyone of us.
We don’t win (hahaha) so much but we answer with hard hitting facts – that really hits them hard. So, they will instruct, we challenge the instructions (thats where we strike LOL), it hits them so hard, so bad, and, they win the arguement BUT the under current is electrifying. In a sense, that battle and that win is ours. We almost always claim it that it’s ours.
That’s so funny and a release of stress writing about it. Our ticket that is outnumbered so to speak and not one of us are the yes-man for their whip of changes. I normally hold my silence but as I have aged in the bank and literally aged… I try to answer straight forward to their queries and demands. One time, I had the courage to question their “data analysis.” The new group can totally cover their bases of answer or maybe not. They don’t quite sure how to deal in terms of practical operations but hail, they’re good in meetings, presentations and social engagements.
The narrative is really long especially I am biased at this point. Bleh! 🙂 The turning point is that these people will drive your wits that you will want to quit and save yourself from the long dragging stress. I mean what’s the point of doing your job when they want is to control your mind, decision and your social skills. Imagine, all of us should post a family picture in line with theme of last year’s Christmas or celebrate a useless National Fried Chicken’s Day or turn the camera for grand group’s pictorial.. all for their own egos. What do we get when we do, minuscule of points for the performance appraisal report. So far, no one has drafted resignation letters yet.
But the real score now is that I had the Covid 19 virus. I’m symptoms free and doing better for days/weeks now.
That’s actually the whole point of the blog, but it took a bloody turn in the office blahs that my words dried up to what I want to share in my journey.
For now, hope everyone is okay. Try to eat healthy, be active, balance food diet, maintain low stress, hydrate and keep the mind busy.
I have been 27 days isolated in the home. My supply of words are just enough or more than enough (thank God) that I was able to write about anything. Thank you if you have bare to this sentence.
Writing this July 14
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